Adult Blogs: COEDS NEED CASH have to be honest with you, Mr. Simon. In order to show you that she had this hold on me almost from the beginning, I have to tell you something else I did that night when I jacked off. Something about Lara made me do crazy, weird shit... just thinking about her that night, smelling her muskiness all over my right hand, made me take all that hot jism that had fallen on my stomach and rub it over my belly with my left hand. I let it dry, then fell asleep with both hands up to my face, hoping to breath life into the dreams of Lara I knew would come.